The Job

Thanks everyone who commented about the job situation. I am still adjusting. It has been harder than I ever anticipated. I know eventually it will all work out, but right now I am still stressed out about the whole situation. I am also still second guessing the whole thing, but now I am stuck. As of right now I am still on a mission to stay at home while Kiki is growing up. I would like to return to teaching once Kiki and any other children we may have are in school themselves. At that point I think I will be ready to teach again and be able to focus. Who knows.

What was I thinking?!

I just started at a new school district. It was hard leaving my friends behind and the kids I grew to really care about over the years, but the school was being ruined by choices being made and I was not happy there anymore. I still ask myself, WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?! I knew the curriculum, I had friends, I liked the kids, and I was close to home. Now I know a few people, I am unfamiliar with the curriculum, and the commute is longer. Again, WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?!? I know in the long run it will be the better move, but right now I am overwhelmed and tired.

My ultimate goal is to find a way to stay home with Kiki. I would love to be a stay at home mom, but we cannot afford that. This year I am hoping to find something that is actually legit so I can eventually stay home with her. Any suggestions?

The good thing is that Kiki loves her daycare and has a lot of friends there. She gets so excited to go there in the morning. At least I know she is happy to be there. Even though I would rather be with her, I know she needs the socialization in her daily life.